As we neared his school, I pre-empted him that mummy may not be able to get parking, and will just have to drop him off like many other parents. God has given mummy parking for the past few days despite the many cars, but maybe it's time for someone else to get the parking.
William would wrap his arms around my neck at random times in the car (sometimes, if Vic is around she gets agitated that he's standing and would snap at him). At that moment, he did the same, and I see his little serious face next to mine in the rear mirror. This is when he announced, "Mummy, I don't want to go to university overseas. I want to study here in Malaysia so that I can be with you."
Such a touching statement. I shared with him that Mummy and Daddy would want both him and Jie Jie to study overseas for certain reasons (which I will not publish here) but Mummy will be happy to go stay with him. Still serious face, he asked me what about Daddy?
"Well, if Daddy is not working he can join us, or Daddy can take leave to stay for awhile." Hehehe.
Later I double-parked, hugged him in between the cars, and walked him into the center, watched him take off his shoes and then I had to repark my car again to be considerate to other cars wanting to drop off. I got out again, saw him queued up at his class where they assemble. He stood there waiting for his friends to arrive. We waved good bye to each other and as he looked away, I decided to walk off. With a heavy heart.
As I slowly drove off, I was so tempted to park and walk back to see him again. Normally I'd wait till his Principal dismisses them after prayer and announcements, but today is the first day that I did not.
So there, honestly I had some guilt in my heart, some "mm seh tak", some sadness.
