My dilemma

Last night I had dinner with my ex client.

Before I left my last job in 2008, he has offered me to jump ship for a procurement role in his company. But timing was not right as I was 6 months pregnant with William then.

A few months after William was born, he asked again if I was keen, but I had to turn him down with regrets (and fear that he might have taken offence).

Three years down the road, he is now holding a bigger portfolio and overseeing a staff count of a hundred times more than when I was servicing his account.

Keeping in touch with him and my ex colleagues and bosses has been random and few, and we try to make it a point to meet up over a meal, so to stay in touch with the ongoings of the industry. Aaahh, but how I have rusted because it is totally impossible to, with all my priorities now on household and upbringing of the kids and the property market.

Last night over our meal at The Curve, he wasted no time but asked if I knew of anyone who could help him with this role which he then proceeded to explain. I shook my head, and quietly thought he must be crazy, because I am not working lar and would be the last person to recommend anyone, being out of the market for so long, so is he joking or what?

Then the question became, would I be interested to take on this challenge? It's no longer a procurement position, but one that involves competitor analysis. Part time. Work time flexible. Job scope as he describe it sounds pretty easy but knowing him, there must be more and for this reason, I am paranoid.

Do I take on this challenge, and if I do but fail, will our friendship end? Will my ex client think less of me, or if word has gotten to my ex bosses, would my ex bosses think less of me? What if I make a complete fool of myself? What if my quality time with my kids have to be sacrificed? Is all these worth it?

And the biggest question? Where do I put William when I work? If I work from home, he will want my time. If I go to office, I can't leave him alone in the house with the maid. Hubs and I have initially toyed with the idea of starting William with part-time kindy to adjust him to being away from me, so could this be our big break?

So is this my chance of a lifetime, maybe my last chance... should I or shouldn't I? I asked William and he immediately said, no. Why? Because "I want you in my house, play with me" but Vic told me it's up to me.

I'm praying and looking for clues and hints and signs of His direction. What do you think, fellow mommies and friends? How I wish I can just flip the coin for an answer. I have over the weekend to give him an answer. The job starts a.s.a.p... aaaah, typical of this client.